Hello. I am Mary. Welcome to my Blog. (not journal) If you don't like what I have to say, then leave. I'm sorry if I offend you, I write a lot of this shit when I'm mad... So I prolly dont REALLY mean it. I say what I mean. I say what I don't mean. I'm not always nice. I'm human.

I always wear my bracelett from Las Vegas.
I'm obsessed with my dog. <333
I care about you more than you think.
Everyone hates my ringtone because it's always going off.
But I love it.

I love my backpack more than anything <3
I stay up all night and wake sometime during the afternoon.
I get bored easy....VERY EASY
I go through guys like seasons because generally speaking- they can't entertain me long enough.
I do not wanna be tied down just yet.
I know a lot of random facts...and how to do a lot of random things.
I crip walk.
I am very good at teaching people how to do "stuff" ;)
I'm shy.
I HATE eskimo boots with a fiery passion.
It's impossible for a guy to threaten me with mentioning another girl.
Sorry, I just don't care.

I think, a lot.
I paint, I draw.

I have no secrets.
Okay, maybe a few. ;)

I have a knack for getting Pink Eye.
I snowboard.
I dance.
I'm very open minded.
I love sex.

I'm very blunt & Brutally honest. Some people can't handle that...
But if you appreciate the truth. You'll appreciate me. :)

I hate when people can't spell...like, at all.

I will do just about anything if it makes someone I care about laugh.

I don't like boys.
Don't tell me you know more about Tupac or Biggie than me.
Because you don't and I'll just make you look stupid in front of everyone.
I'm finally leaving Buffalo.


I really DON'T CARE what you think if you don't know me well... or if I don't like you.

Chances are you think you know...But you don't.

I'm fiesty.
I'm badass.
Don't fuck with me or people I care about.
I will make you pay for it if you do.
I smile...a lot.
I throw up gang signs.
I'm a G. ;)
I shop like it's my job.
I'll prolly lie to you if you ask me how many people I've slept with.



Yes, I drink.
Yes, I smoke.
Fuck you, Judge me.

I have a lot of health problems.
But I don't care.
I overthink everything...
EVERYTHING.
I believe in second chances.
I'm too hard to define because I'm changing with every day.
My shampoo is SEX
I'm too sensitive...
but I'm working on that.


I don't find manwhores attractive...at all.

I work hard in school.
I party hard.
I won't tell you I care about you unless I mean it.
You'll know if you're a special person to me.
If I hooked up with a guy you like, and you try to give me shit about it.
You might wanna think twice. I'll do it again, just to spite you. ;)
I bartend.
I can manipulate myself into caring about someone.
I can manipulate my memory into almost forgetting everything about someone and detaching any kind of feeling associated with them.

I love the beach.
I love seeing you smile.
I kinda love snuggling.
I bite ;) sorry.
I people watch..LIKe CrAzY.
I'm far from a whore.
I HATE cheese.
If you call me out on something, I might deny it.
I don't like fighting.
I'm curious.
I don't believe in regrets.
I want to change the world as much as possible.
I love snow.
I don't care if you don't.

832- we's rockstars.


If you think I want to fuck you,

Chances are... I don't.


I have amazing/diverse taste in music.
And someone you know prolly has a cd I put together.
I don't care if you play football, or if you drive a nice car or if you have a huge dick.
I've seen it all.

Try to impress me.

I fall hard ;)
Although, I hardly ever fall.
I miss Rob.
I miss "her" too.
My car smells orgasmic.
and it's got the coolest hangy things on the antenna.
I go to UB.
But not for long. :))
I have blue eyes
I have cancer, it sucks. And it's made me grow up really fast.
I don't like telling people the same thing twice. Learn to listen

I show respect for others until they give me a reason not to.
I love to drink juice.








"Yeah, A-town's finest
I'm the top notch glammour chick
Tell me, If I throw it at you baby... can you handle it??"




I'm getting sick of talkin about myself.
Just ask ;)
I'm pretttyyy much an open book, so anything goes. :D

Hm okay, Health update NUMERO DOSsss ;)
Since I deleted the last entryyy.

I know a lot of people are like "wtf mary, why did you take so long to tell me?" In fact, I get that from almost all of you. But whatever. You guys, I apologize for that. It was stupiddd of me. I guess I thought that it would be no big deal. I mean, after all...the doctor said going into my biopsy that there was a 95% chance of it being nothing, but they just wanted to check and make sure. Even the people I DID tell said I had nothing to worry about.
So I figured, why make a fuss if it's nothing?
Yah knowww?

Well everyone, Including me...was wrong I guess.

Cuz now like...It isn't nothing. It's something.

Results from biopsy were bad. Yack.

(( a biopsy for those of you that don't knoww...Basically, what that is they stick this sheet over my neck, numb the area..(not really) Then stab me with 5 needles. I thought one of them was out, when it was actually in and I swallowed with the needle stuck through the side of my neck. (So that really hurt). Then when the needle is in, they move it around a lot and suck stuff out of the lump. (That hurts too)

The day after that I had to have madd blood tests. So I'm a very unhappy girl to say the least. ))


Figures right?

I have a 95% chance of being healthy and perfectly fine...Yet I fall in the 5% that isn't.

Talk about defying the odds. With this luck, I should be playing the lottery. lol.

My doctor, (who is very hard to get appts with- in fact, I didnt ever even meet him until my ultrasound came up bad) actually called my friggin house the day after my test. So I was thinking to myself, "hmm, that's odd." He said that he wanted me to go see a speacialist (oh great). Ugh. So then my mom talked to him and he said that Dr. Lee or w.e the fuck the dude's name is...Is on vacation but I was his first apt on his FIRST day back. Like damn. Yikes guys, what's the big fuckin hurry to get me in there?

Idk. I wasn't totally worried about it until I see how everyone else is acting. That shit freaks me out.

I really dont want them to take my entire thyroid out though. Like shit. That's serious surgery. So I would have to stop snowboarding while I healed. Not to mention I'd be on meds for life. I'm a pimpin' 18 year old. Fuck that. I don't need dis shyt. lol.

But I ain't gunna be all depressed about it. It is what it is. Everything in my life thus far has worked out to my advantage. Even when I thought of something as terrible. It all worked out to my benefit. With every door that closes another opens.

So I think...with this, as everything else...
I'll come out on top.
Cuz I've learned...
that's where I always belong. ;)

Now boys boys boys.

Alright. Remember how I used to be all pimpin' and shit? Then Freddie got me to calm down, and all my health stuff happened, xmas stuff...and all that crap...So I just stopped.

I was completely fine with no boys beyond my friendships. I got rid of a lot of them. Cut them off, stopped takin calls. Whatever. Who cares.

Funny thing is...the second I decide to not give a fuck, they come flying in droves. Kinda funny if you ask me.

First with Freddie. Bless his cute lil heart.
I really hope he's okay.
He just was too much for me to handle at this time.
So I had to drop that.
I feel like, at some point. I'll come back for him. I'll come back to save him.
I don't know why I always feel like I have to save everyone.
I just hate that I wasn't strong enough for him at this time and I had to give him up.



Then Tyler&Chris.
UGH
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Oh Chris, I just stopped talkin to him altogether. All he ever did was bitch about how I should leave Tyler for him. Like fuck. Pretty sure last time I checked I had my own brain. He just got annoying.


Tyler-

Oh boy. That's another story in and of itself. I can't even begin to describe how much he gets on my damn nerves. I can't stand him. Ugh.
EW
EW
EW
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I shouldn't say "ew" cuz he's obviously as close to perfection as any human can get. In the physical sense anyways. But FUCK. I've never cared so little about a guy. I generally have to force some amount of caring upon myself. That shit is routine, so I'm used to it. But Tyler, good god. I don't think I could ever trick myself into caring about him.

Steven will wake me up :) ....and I talk to Steven over him. Whenever I get a txt, I cringe if his name comes up. He will call...I never answer. He has even been calling me on Restricted now. Which, I find hillarious. I STILL don't answer.

By the way, I did break up with him today.
He still thinks we are dating. So idk wtf that is. Don't believe it if he tells you that. I was quite clear with him.

Fruit case.

When I do txt him back...I'll write out what I have to say in as few words as possible, then I have to remember to go back and add in all the sappy "baby, sweety, ty ty" all that shit. YACK. Fuck that. Hmmm...see cuz I'm gunna txt someone else when I get done with the chore of talking to your ass...I'm pretty sure I never have to remind myself to call him amazing.

Oh wait..I forgot...that's because he's better than youuu. :) Yup yup.

When Tyler asked me out, I was just like, "yeah, sure" Whatever. I didn't care. But I really never gave a fuck one way or the other. I guess I thought..why not? He should be entertaining for awhile. Boy was I wrong.

He beacame way more work than his while


Thinking about it now...His only redeeming quality is that he has Verizon.
hahah, wow...I'm brutal.

Or it sounds that way.
But if you met the smartass cocky son of a bitch, you wouldn't blame me.

Today he was trying to get me to ask him back out....like talkin about some Cailyn girl. I'm like "Tyler, if you want to date her, go ahead, I know she doesn't have shit on me..but it's up to you. Go for it. I don't care. Let me know if she's a good lay."

hahhah Funnnyy. He wanted me to get mad. Normally, I'd pretend to be upset..Cuz I guess if I cared, something like that WOULD bother me. But today I said fuck it. I aint pretending to care. I'm too lazy right now.

But wow, was he suprised by my response. Lmao.
Then he's like, "baby I just said that to make you mad. I didn't really mean it, you know your the only one. I want you, all of you, and no one else."

Good God. I'd rather fuckin die.
lmao.


Enough of ty.
Moving onto shit that matters...


Crabby Patty-

I know your mad at me. I don't know why. But I miss our talks. Try not to be so hard on me. Call me. Let me know what's up. I'll do what I can to make you happy. But I can't read minds dear. Btw. I didn't ignore you last nigt. I get bad reception in Canada coz my phone goes on roam. Sorry though.



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Today I txted Steven in my sleep.
WoaAh. Talk about madd skillzz marryy!!

Steven even more though, cuz you actually figured out what I was saying.

PS: You are one of the biggest distractions ever. I start talking to you and hours go by. Damnnnn usss!!!!

hahha, but I wouldn't have it any other way-
First person I wake up to
&
The last before I sleep.

Work it harder
Make it better
Move it faster
Make sex longer
Hour after hour
Our work is never over.


Oh yeah...did I mention your the cutest thing evuhhh?

:)

Proceed with Caution though...
When someone seems too good to be true,
they usually are.


But damn, I actually like you. And I never like any guys. Take Tyler for example...lmao.

Snowboarding with Nikki tomorrow....double :) !!!!
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